Feeling clean…

I’ve managed to stay clean for quite a few days. In fact its been months since my last visit, and over ten days from the last time I relieved myself. And although I’ve had many intense urges, there have been moments where I feel strangely clean. The more days I abstain the cleaner I feel.

I catch myself thinking about other things than just sex-related activities. I was walking downtown the other day and was simply enjoying the walk, without thinking that I could get my kicks from walking around in the seedy neighbourhoods. I find myself more focused on my work, even though the past weeks my mind has been constantly spinning with all the related relationship problems.

For the first time after many years, sex is not the priority that dominates my brain (although occasionally it still does). Its good to realise that there’s more to life than just the next upload on some adult forum. And I really hope that this feeling will continue and will get stronger each day.

~ by exaddict on October 23, 2007.