Zeroing the Debt
I was checking out my credit card statement the other day happy to notice that I have pretty much zeroed the debt. For me the fact that my CC is clean is another sign of recovery.
I had a habit of spending recklessly on sex services in my addiction days. And where as in the first years the cost was somewhat negligible on my financial situation, as time progressed I started spending more and more on sex services. In my quest for finding that extra thrill, something that would give me “THE FIX” I found myself spending more and more money. Regular callgirls became glamour escorts. I was living the myth, using money simply as the means to achieve my needs.
As a result after some point I was spending more than I was earning and I was gradually accumulating debt. Although I was aware that my increased spending on prostitutes was making my debt grow, I always found convenient excuses to justify myself. There were times where I told myself, its something I enjoy doing why shouldn’t I spend money. Some people spend their money on boating, others on scuba diving, I spend mine on prostitutes. There were times when I tried to make a budget for sex services, but that system didn’t last long, because whenever I needed my fix, I would simply “borrow” from next months budget. There were times where I told myself I expected increased earnings in the future that would help me in paying off any excess debt.
About Eleven months since the last time I spent on a sex service, the situation is as follows: All the excess cash arising from not spending on prostitutes went to debt-repayment. Also, because I now have more productive life, I can work harder, be far more efficient, and take on more jobs. As a result I have decreased my debt dramatically and I expect this pattern to continue.
Note: I have been able to decrease my debt despite the fact that I have spent thousands of Euros on therapy in the past year….
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Tim Ramsey
Congratulations. My husband and I are working through debt issues as well. It feels great to have that weight lifted.
Congratulations. That was addiction I can understand. Most people end up spending less and less. For one $300 buys you more than 10 years ago. Or, without good reasons, one don’t bother to go out at all because it’s hard to be satisfied. But once a year affordable foreign expedition doesn’t sound so bad?
Excuses like “an occasional foreign expedition” is exactly the stuff that traps sex addicts into a vicious circle of self destruction. I bet I’d come back from the foreign expedition and bullshit myself in meeting up with an escort just for ol’times sake